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I used to be here four years ago but I left. I was Guitarsage2k/Parallax5.
These fangames mean a lot to me (attempt at order)
1. I Wanna Kill the Kermit 3
2. I Wanna Walk Out in the Morning Dew
3. I Wanna Be the Volatile Presence: Stagnant Edition
4. Crimson Needle 3
5. I Wanna Kill the Kermit 2
6. I Wanna Figure
7. Phonotransmitter
8. VoVoVo
9. I Wanna Reach the Moon
10. untitled needle game
11. I Wanna Burnmind
12. Domu
13. I Want To Meet Miki
14. I Wanna Go Across the Rainbow
15. Alphazetica
16. I Wanna Stop the Simulation
17. I Wanna Hydrate
18. I Wanna Be the Ocean Princess
19. I Wanna Vibe with the Gods
20. I Wanna Be the Vandal
21. I Wanna Pray to the Platform God
22. I Want
23. I Wanna Pointillism
24. I Wanna Be Far From Home
25. I Wanna Be the RO
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237 Reviews!
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YaBoiMarcAntony
For: I wanna uplift the needle
For: I wanna uplift the needle
Inferno takes to nader's style so well, it's crazy. It took him just totally going to another style altogether to make his best game up to this point, but hell if it isn't an amazing game anyways. With that said, there is the obvious inferno touch to the game, so it's not like it's creatively bankrupt or anything, far from it. I don't have too much to say about the game, but it is well worth your time whether you enjoy old needle, are re-visiting it, or are just a new player seeing what the past held.
Tagged as: Needle
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Rating: 8.0 80
Difficulty: 53 53
Jan 25, 2022
YaBoiMarcAntony
For: I wanna fall into the snow
For: I wanna fall into the snow
Pretty decent game, no real issues like you'd find with other older inferno games. With that said, it's also not particularly memorable which arguably other inferno games like come from the north or what have you are explicitly because of their rougher design. At any rate, this is a better game than most of what chatran made under the inferno name, so that's what matters.
Tagged as: Needle
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Rating: 6.9 69
Difficulty: 50 50
Jan 25, 2022
YaBoiMarcAntony
For: I wanna be the microheaven
For: I wanna be the microheaven
Pretty fun game in its own right with very little in the way of grody shit, though that grody shit is there. I lost my save at the third to last screen so I didn't technically clear, but I did do what I am told is the hardest save and the last few saves couldn't be bad enough to dramatically change these ratings. Recommended insofar as inferno needle is concerned (not recommended insofar as chatran needle is concerned unless you enjoy this brand of semi-precision needle).
Tagged as: Needle
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Rating: 6.5 65
Difficulty: 75 75
Jan 25, 2022
YaBoiMarcAntony
For: I wanna come from the north
For: I wanna come from the north
While there is some very, very good needle in this game, there's also some rather terrible needle to be found as well (often within the span of two saves or even within a save). As such, I find this a tough game to rate particularly well as there's rarely a save without a complaint, and the best saves all happen to be the easiest ones. All the same, if you have a particular liking for this sort of needle, then you should give it a shot as when the game does it well, it does it QUITE well.
Also, the penultimate save fucking sucks.
Also, the penultimate save fucking sucks.
Tagged as: Needle
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Rating: 5.5 55
Difficulty: 82 82
Jan 25, 2022
YaBoiMarcAntony
For: XIFT
For: XIFT
What you're never gonna get from a Derf game is something without meaning. In every single thing he does, there is purpose and reasoning behind it. XIFT, naturally, is no different, though naysayers would have you believe otherwise. I was a naysayer myself, in fact! I wasn't much of a fan of the game myself for a long time, believing it to be a terribly awkward game that rode on the spectacular atmosphere. I acknowledged why aspects of the game were awkward and I respected that vision, but it just didn't make for enjoyable gameplay insofar as I was concerned. This is the big thing about games which try to do something beyond make good gameplay: just because it's trying to do something else doesn't mean it suddenly has to be okay or that you have to like it! I can acknowledge the purpose or goal of some thing which appears to me as a negative gameplay-wise and it can still remain a negative beyond that. Of course, I also think the role of anyone who tries to approach a game honestly is to nonetheless accept what a game is trying to do and not to just disparage it because what it wants to do doesn't fit into what you like. There's a fine line between acknowledging what a game attempts to do while still not liking it and just totally rejecting what it's trying to do in the first place.
All that is to say, I simply didn't like what XIFT tried to do because I felt like it did not improve the gameplay for me. For a long time, I was totally focused on gameplay and took anything else as a nice bonus. It was those nice bonuses which made me fall in love with a game, but I would never like a game if the gameplay wasn't up to what I deemed as par and no game could have gameplay really improved by those things I deemed "nice bonuses." Nowadays, I think that's a bit of a reductive view, though I still maintain the importance of quality gameplay. It's just, I also recognize how much gameplay can be affected by a game's purpose and meaning. XIFT is a game which deals in anxiety, something Derf has outright said himself. I've always understood that the purpose of invisible saves was to therefore create a sense of anxiety within the player, though I never actually made the connection between the design of the screens themselves and that purpose of anxiety.
Perhaps I shouldn't say I understood the purpose of what Derf did because more accurately I acknowledged that he had a purpose and I understand what he has said about that purpose and what it is - but I never actually internalized the feelings he was trying to impart. While playing XIFT for the second time, I very much honed in on that sense of anxiety built not only by the invisible saves but that in tandem with the unconventional gameplay. Derf's sense of needle design and what feels good to do is at a level that most other needle players could never hope to reach because he knows exactly what feels nice to do and therefore knows exactly what to make in order to convey a sense of unease with his gameplay in XIFT. There is something delightful in clearing what I deem to be a terribly awkward jump and then realizing there's no guarantee I won't have to do it again if I screw up. The entire game is built on that sense of unease from moment to moment, you can never really know when you're feet are touching the ground as the reality of your situation is always up in the air until you've failed.
Once I came to understand that, I started to wonder if the game wouldn't be improved with increased difficulty so as to further develop that anxious feeling, but truthfully I think that misses the point, or at least it does for me. I don't really think this game is just about anxiety but instead the acceptance of it as a reality that you have to deal with and learning to come to terms with it. Because of that, I think the game relies on the fact that it's not too hard so that the player can not feel hopeless when playing. Whether it's anxiety about failure or anxiety about the unknown, the game almost has this sense of comfort in which it says "hey, you're probably gonna fail and that's okay. You can just try again anyways and maybe you'll get further and learn something about your place in this world!" The blood effect, as small a thing as it is, helps impart that sense of accepting failure because any given death leaves a mark, but it's a mark that nonetheless fades away after some time. It leaves an impact, but not a lasting one. This attention to detail and meaning is what really sells the game for me not just because it's meaningful in the first place but because it helps elevate the gameplay to something more than it would be if taken on its own as I did before.
What I particularly love is how Derf brings these facts down to earth with the last stage. You could dismiss all of this by suggesting that these feelings of anxiety and such only exist within the alien world you visit after the meteor lands, but the last stage tells us, or at least hints at, that whether or not that meteor introduced these emotions to us, they're with us for life now and even if the epilogue is clear, there's no way of knowing that those alien worlds won't come back again.
In all, XIFT is one of those games that you either understand and you don't. I've always thought I understood it and I just didn't like it, but I'm not sure if that can really happen. Acknowledgement and understanding are two completely different things, that much is clear. It's just impossible for me to tell if the difference isn't just whether I like whatever it is I'm talking about or not. XIFT, at the very least, has inadvertently helped me towards understanding these semi-irrelevant things and in the process, I came to understand the game itself and love it for that understanding.
All that is to say, I simply didn't like what XIFT tried to do because I felt like it did not improve the gameplay for me. For a long time, I was totally focused on gameplay and took anything else as a nice bonus. It was those nice bonuses which made me fall in love with a game, but I would never like a game if the gameplay wasn't up to what I deemed as par and no game could have gameplay really improved by those things I deemed "nice bonuses." Nowadays, I think that's a bit of a reductive view, though I still maintain the importance of quality gameplay. It's just, I also recognize how much gameplay can be affected by a game's purpose and meaning. XIFT is a game which deals in anxiety, something Derf has outright said himself. I've always understood that the purpose of invisible saves was to therefore create a sense of anxiety within the player, though I never actually made the connection between the design of the screens themselves and that purpose of anxiety.
Perhaps I shouldn't say I understood the purpose of what Derf did because more accurately I acknowledged that he had a purpose and I understand what he has said about that purpose and what it is - but I never actually internalized the feelings he was trying to impart. While playing XIFT for the second time, I very much honed in on that sense of anxiety built not only by the invisible saves but that in tandem with the unconventional gameplay. Derf's sense of needle design and what feels good to do is at a level that most other needle players could never hope to reach because he knows exactly what feels nice to do and therefore knows exactly what to make in order to convey a sense of unease with his gameplay in XIFT. There is something delightful in clearing what I deem to be a terribly awkward jump and then realizing there's no guarantee I won't have to do it again if I screw up. The entire game is built on that sense of unease from moment to moment, you can never really know when you're feet are touching the ground as the reality of your situation is always up in the air until you've failed.
Once I came to understand that, I started to wonder if the game wouldn't be improved with increased difficulty so as to further develop that anxious feeling, but truthfully I think that misses the point, or at least it does for me. I don't really think this game is just about anxiety but instead the acceptance of it as a reality that you have to deal with and learning to come to terms with it. Because of that, I think the game relies on the fact that it's not too hard so that the player can not feel hopeless when playing. Whether it's anxiety about failure or anxiety about the unknown, the game almost has this sense of comfort in which it says "hey, you're probably gonna fail and that's okay. You can just try again anyways and maybe you'll get further and learn something about your place in this world!" The blood effect, as small a thing as it is, helps impart that sense of accepting failure because any given death leaves a mark, but it's a mark that nonetheless fades away after some time. It leaves an impact, but not a lasting one. This attention to detail and meaning is what really sells the game for me not just because it's meaningful in the first place but because it helps elevate the gameplay to something more than it would be if taken on its own as I did before.
What I particularly love is how Derf brings these facts down to earth with the last stage. You could dismiss all of this by suggesting that these feelings of anxiety and such only exist within the alien world you visit after the meteor lands, but the last stage tells us, or at least hints at, that whether or not that meteor introduced these emotions to us, they're with us for life now and even if the epilogue is clear, there's no way of knowing that those alien worlds won't come back again.
In all, XIFT is one of those games that you either understand and you don't. I've always thought I understood it and I just didn't like it, but I'm not sure if that can really happen. Acknowledgement and understanding are two completely different things, that much is clear. It's just impossible for me to tell if the difference isn't just whether I like whatever it is I'm talking about or not. XIFT, at the very least, has inadvertently helped me towards understanding these semi-irrelevant things and in the process, I came to understand the game itself and love it for that understanding.
Tagged as: Needle
[0] Likes
Rating: 8.8 88
Difficulty: 60 60
Jan 21, 2022
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| Game | Difficulty | Average Rating | # of Ratings |
|---|---|---|---|
| A Sky Blue Denouement | 88.8 | 8.4 | 10 |
| April is the Cruelest Month | 84.8 | 8.8 | 19 |
| I Wanna Flying Disc | 91.5 | 9.3 | 4 |
| Frankie Teardrop | 2.2 | 6.0 | 10 |
| I Don't Wanna Dwell | 69.2 | 7.3 | 14 |
| Nebulous Thoughts | 80.0 | 9.1 | 32 |
| Strewn Detritus | 69.0 | 7.3 | 14 |
| The Sunken Cathedral | 69.5 | 8.2 | 28 |
| I Wanna be the Ziggomatic Drukqs | 70.5 | 7.3 | 9 |
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